An update amongst other things
Been pretty quiet lately save for the enormous amount of posts that I have on ‘A Single Man’ whose effect on me seems to never waver.
An update, yes.
I’m turning 20 in two days.
Turns out that I can handle my coming-of-age better now that my Christmas was fucked up.
Things that happened recently: Someone made me so messed up on Christmas because of what they said to me on that day. Only a few people know this and only a few people are capable of understanding.
(Mon cher Daniel and ma cherie Pea bear, I’ll explain it to you sometime)
I also recently confirmed that the guy I like is just a really nice guy. Also confirmed that I always turn out to like gay guys which means that my love life is doomed.
Bitter-est Christmas.
So for the past few days I’ve been a wreck but my dear friend N has been an angel accompanying me at home, eating and cooking with me, watching ‘A Single Man’ yet again, drooling at Jon Kortajarena with me, sipping some alcohol and beer, listening to me rant about everything and walking around town just letting it all out. Thanks for that hun.
Told my mom about what happened yesterday and she was just the best mom a girl could ask for. Of course I was crying my eyeballs off just telling her the story and she’s 100% supportive and she just listened to me and my cursing.
She and my friend N suggested that I write a letter about how that person has hurt me and at first I thought that it would be too momentous a task since I was so raw and vulnerable (still am) but I started writing and boy oh boy, writing heals wounds like no vice can.
Sent the thrice edited letter (edited by my mom and I) to the person and I feel a helluva lot better today than the past four days.
So yeah, Good Morning.
